Jesus comforts banker and restores his identity
T would tear up whenever he spoke of his long-deceased sister. Here is his testimony of how God gently revealed the lies he had believed about himself, his sister’s death as well as his parents. Through an encounter with Jesus, He has been set free to receive God’s truth and healing. Praise God!
Even with strong Biblical teachings, I still succumbed to Satan’s tricks and lies.
I was born and raised in a traditional, conservative church and prided myself in my brethren church background. Through a cleansing prayer, God brought a few significant revelations to me. I have come to realise that there are many things that I need to go to the Holy Spirit for greater understanding of and not just depend on my intellectual knowledge of God’s Word. I am only just now enlightened as to how spiritually corrupted and blinded I have been for so many years.
Throughout my life, I put on many earthly badges on my identity.
All these earthly and temporal badges need to be stripped away before I could stand on my identity in Christ Jesus alone. This included going to an elite boarding school, graduating from a good university and working on Wall Street.
Galatians 3:27-28 – for all of you who were baptized into Christ have clothed yourselves with Christ. There is neither Jew nor Gentile, neither slave nor free, nor is there male or female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus.
The other badge was that of a “victim” and a “good guy”.
My younger sister passed away unexpectedly during my teens. This shook my family to the core. My parents dealt with the grief in their own ways and I felt both neglected and guilty for not treasuring her more before her death. As a result, I saw myself as a victim of the situation and my dysfunctional relationship with my parents.
I suppressed my emotions and told myself that I had to be a good guy to make up for what happened.
This gave way to spiritual strongholds of performance and pride.
Prior to my prayer session, I was asked to complete some surveys including a spiritual gifts test. During the session, God revealed how I had been abusing my gifts for my own benefit.
I misused my gift of mercy by victimizing myself and attracting mercy for various situations, like my sister’s death.
My gift of teaching was twisted by pride to evaluate and judge my parents. I was not using my gift of pastoring to lovingly bring my parents to God’s truths and comfort. I had been blind to my self-centred pride. This selfishness distracted me from the truth that God is sovereign. He is also a Father of compassion and the God of all comfort.
2 Corinthians 1:3-5 – Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God. For just as we share abundantly in the sufferings of Christ, so also our comfort abounds through Christ.
I ought to go directly to God for comfort, instead of using my own understanding to compensate for my past.
During the prayer session, God brought back memories of me crying alone in my bedroom as a teenager. My parents never spoke about my sister after her death nor did they make any effort to comfort me. Yet God revealed Himself as a good Heavenly Father who was present with me throughout that time.
I also realised that I have a choice to celebrate the 11 years of great memories that God had given me with my sister or continue to focus on her passing and victimise myself. I had not realised that by seeing myself as a victim, I was indirectly accusing God of being cruel and punitive.
I am not a victim. I am a redeemed and blessed son of God. And God is good!
As a result, I am now learning to rely on God to:
- Put on the full armour of God – especially the belt of truth.
- Seek God’s revelation and truth in each and every situation.
- Avoid Satan’s twisted truths.
- Not rely on my understanding and knowledge.
- Not put up with even the littlest of strongholds that can lead to a spiral of spiritual death.
I also personally encountered God’s amazing healing power in my physical body too.
Before the prayer session, I experienced several weeks of eye twitching, SI joint pain, IT band tension and other hip issues. I saw a physician and physical therapist numerous times to address these issues. But that night after I went home, I realized that God had healed me from all my ailments, without me even noticing it!
Praise God for His amazing healing power and for giving me the opportunity to see His truth through this experience.
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